Another bad day to be me....

Went to the doc, got my adderall script but couldn't get up $3 to get it so its waiting on me. Guh. I also binged like crazy. omfg I hate myself right now. I just feel like I cant stop. I feel like all this progress means nothing, that none of it matters. Everything was going so well I kept losing and I kept thinking people would notice and I would be able to find someone and be happy. As long as I am here in this country fried town it is not going to happen. I feel like running away as far as I can like when I was 16.